The Magic 28

BirthdayWell, it’s that time of  year again.  Yesterday I turned one year older.  I am now a hard 28.

I don’t really get birthdays.  I’ve never been a huge birthday person.  I don’t have mega bashes, or expect a crazy amount of presents.  I like to have a nice dinner, see the people I care about, have some drinks and laughs, and… that’s kinda it.

27 was a hard year for me.  I went on an off anxiety pills.  I hit my heaviest weight.  I ended a 7 year relationship.  That’s a pretty heavy list.  27 is a year that is not going to go down in my history books as being awesome.  But yesterday I woke up in the morning, I showered, I did my hair and makeup, and I was standing in front of the mirror brushing my teeth.  I looked at myself, and smiled, which was awkward with the toothbrush in my mouth but I managed.  28.  I felt brand new.  This was not a year older, this was a new year.  I had this elated feeling, more so then at new years, that this was going to be a good year.  28 is my year.  It’s the perfect age.  I’m still in my twenties.  I have a good job that I’m being promoted in, I’m single and loving it, and I can do anything in the world I want.  There is nothing holding me back.

Of course I got the usual jokes about getting older from everyone, which made me smile and laugh.  But I don’t really get it.  Why is everyone so afraid of aging?  I know it’s easy for me to say,  because I’m still young and as of yet don’t have any wrinkles, but I don’t understand it.  My ex boyfriend was horrified at the idea of turning thirty.  I mean he was like ‘I’m not where I wanted to be at thirty’.  What does that mean?  Why does it make you so unhappy?  I’m not where I thought I’d be at 28, but I consider that a good thing.  My life is completely different, and I’m excited about that.  I’m the person that I am, and I have no idea who that person is going to turn out to be at 30.  In two years I could be anyone!  How exciting is that!

I do have stress in my life.  Mostly about money.  Why does life always come down to money?  Anyway, I get that part of it.  I’d like to be comfortable.  I’d like to make enough money to pay for a lifestyle that I’m happy with.  But that will come with hard work and some luck.  I don’t want to set a five year goal because I want to let my life happen as it does, without being constantly disappointed with the time that’s passing.  I am 28 and I feel great.  I can see my life in front of me like a wide open sunny day.  All I have to do is step into it, and I can keep going for miles and miles.

I’m good with 28.  It’s going to be a good year.  I can feel it.

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